From the time we are children, barely learning to talk, we are surrounded by the pressure of becoming something, SOMEONE! Growing up, we all have dreamt of becoming rock stars, fire fighters, doctors, cowboys, princesses, etc. and our whole lives are based on working towards the person we dream of becoming! As a child, the possibilities are endless; the image is so exciting! As time goes on, the thought of whom we’re going to be and what it’s going to take to get there is terrifying and the pressure is overwhelming sometimes! Where has the imagination gone? Have you given up? Are you frustrated with where you’re at and losing hope in dreams you once held tight? Well, if you answered yes to any of the above then you don’t want to stop reading! If you’re not quite there yet, someday you might be and I think this blog will be just as relevant to you as anyone!
As I mentioned in my first blog “Handle With Care”, I thought that I had everything figured out after I graduated from high school. My dreams were arms length away and there was only a summer break standing between me and achieving them. My whole life I had wanted to lead worship but never felt good enough. It always seemed too far; too out of reach and starting my junior year everything started to fall together! My senior year, I was accepted into a school of ministry for worship! I could not be more excited, I felt like my mom and I were at TJ Maxx every other weekend buying new things for my apartment! As summer came to an end and as the school year grew extremely close, my family realized that financially it just was out of our budget! I grew extremely mad. I blamed everyone! I was mad at my parents, I was mad at myself for not doing better in school but I was the angriest with God. I had myself convinced that I had been right all along; I was never good enough! I refused to take part in anything that had to do with ministry or church or anything! I became extremely rebellious and without realizing, became an entirely different person. From moving out of my house to trying to separate my bank accounts from my parents. I worked every day and partied every night. It became routine and the longer I associated myself with this lifestyle the less I recognized the person I had been before. In every way possible, I was different. Once I stepped away from this lifestyle, I began to find hope again! Although I had still given up, to an extent, on worship, due to insecurity and fear of rejection, I was determined to become something! I had always been good at hair and make up and always had dreamed of becoming a cosmetologist on the side. Therefore, this was my chance! I applied to a few different cosmetology schools and after scheduling a tour date, received a call from the school of ministry that I had already crossed off of my list of possibilities! Now I have a scheduled tour date and have applied for multiple scholarships so that I can attend this fall. Not only that but I am also going to Montana to help with worship for Easter Sunday. One thing, I have noticed with people is that everyone has dreams but it’s become absurd for people to actually achieve them! If there is something that you want to learn or that you enjoy, you should at least give it a chance! You should always pursue your dreams whole-heartedly. Regain the confidence in yourself! This isn’t dress up anymore… You can actually be anything that you want to be! I am that person who wants to be just about everything, I want to be a cosmetologist, a worship leader, a fashion designer, and most importantly someone who encourages people; who leaves people feeling better than I find them! After a long year of waiting and dreaming, I am enrolled in the same school of ministry, looking at a cosmetology school the year after and I just recently made my own Easter dress from scratch! Not only that but I do my best to blog, whether anyone reads it or not! My dreams seemed absolutely impossible a year ago and now I’m slowly achieving all of them. It is possible! You have the ability and the potential to do anything that you’ve ever wanted to, you just have to take a chance and make it happen! The only thing standing between you and your dreams is yourself! Stop saying you want to do things, I want to learn how to sew or I want to learn how to play an instrument, just do them! I want people to see me and be inspired by me, I don’t want people to look at me and want to be just like me! What good would the world be if there were only a million little Jayden Montera’s walking around! Take the time to get to know your self. This last year, I have had very little distraction and have been able to figure out everything that I want and the person I want to be. Don’t be discouraged because you don’t know what your future holds yet. It’s hard to be out of God’s will when you’re completely surrendered to His promises! God will guide you in the direction He wants you to go, when the time is right! I personally find it ignorant though to sit around doing nothing just because you are waiting. Pursue God and the dreams that only He could have instilled in your heart. Psalms 37:4 says, “Take delight in the Lord, and He will give you the desires of your heart.” I am a firm believer that as you pursue God, your desires begin to change. Your desires are no longer your own but you become passionate about the things that He’s passionate about. Just the same as your attitude becomes a lot like those with whom you surround yourself! Therefore, if you are pursuing God faithfully, and you pursue the desires of your heart, you’re getting much closer to the destination that He has set aside for you! Another one of my favorite scriptures: Jeremiah 29:11 “For I know the plans that I have for you, declares the Lord. Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” If you are faithful to God, He will be faithful to you! Stop worrying so much about what the future holds and start focusing on what’s right in front of you. Enjoy the journey and allow it to prepare you for your destination! Never lose faith in yourself and don’t be afraid to try! As far as I’m concerned, until the day we die, we will always have some growing up to do! No matter how old you are or what your circumstance is, you can be anything that you want to be! God knows what He’s doing and what seems like a disaster is only the temporary, He sees past the blue prints. He sees the masterpiece! No more excuses.
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3/30/2015 12:08:04 am
Awesome stuff Jayden. You have a gift of reaching out to people who need to hear these messages! Keep it up an God bless!
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